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Awesome = God
"His mercy has no bounds...
His love endures forever...
His grace is more than sufficient..."
Birthday gift = An answered prayer
Ever since we came back from Singapore & Perth, baby kai has been on a new 'routine'...he wakes up so often at night that i basically catch very little sleep!
I'm so exhausted yet i know is not his fault; he might be teething (we kinda guessed) and the discomfort just keeping him up. Now he's chewing & biting everything that his little hands get hold of!
The night before my birthday, i knelt before his bed while patting him i prayed to the LORD to have mercy on him AND me....and you know what, Kai slept SO well & soundly! How wonderful is that.
BUT...
i was awake waiting for him to be awake! *sigh*
"You of little faith, Carol!" I did not trust God to answer my prayer at all and i missed the whole resting that God granting me on my birthday!
I couldn't sleep so i just looked out the window praising God...
Well, at least baby kai get a good rest!
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Baby Kai-en is NOW 5 month old! 5 months ONLY? It actually felt i have him longer than that...it must be the sleepless nights and the round-the-clock feeding!
Despite all the struggles, stress & responsibilities, we couldn't help but to fall in love with kai; we couldn't imagine our lives without him.
There's indescribable joy watching him growing into an individual every day! Each day of his life he makes countless deposits in the memory banks of ours.
remembering...
@ Birth
The contractions HURTS and the pushing takes lots of EFFORT!
Thank God, it took baby Kai-en only approximately 5 hours (since the first contraction till i see him) to pop out! The labor was so quick that our enrollment into the hospital wasn't even completed when the baby is out! *Phew*
Kai was out early in the morning on Sunday (sabbath baby); just 4 hours before his birth we were still leisurely packing our labor bag thinking that i have plenty of time. We were even planning to take a walk in a park near to our place. What were we thinking? Thank God we didn't if not baby kai will be born @ Park! Until the contraction become more frequent & intense then we decided to go straight to the hospital...
when we reached the hospital around 2:45am, the nurse checked me and told me that i was already 5cm dilated!!! Not too long later....
Baby kai was born!!!!
All natural...NO epidural! i'm so proud of myself even though it was rather NO choice. *grin* The pain was so intense that i nearly strangled Ian; i grabbed him by his collar and keep telling him "i don't want this anymore...!"
Nothing touched the depths of my heart as the love i felt for Kai as soon as i held him in my arms.
The very moment he popped out, the delivery nurse brought him to me and i WEPT and the pain i went through just forgotten!
Anyway, we stayed in the hospital one night cos it was BORING!!! It was a BIG mistake...
@ first 3 months
It was TOUGH mentally, emotionally & physically! I thought I'm ready to be a mum after reading quite a few books on pregnancy & going for all the available pre-natal classes!
NO...!
Being a parent is harder than i imagine. Life would be easier if children came with a manual with step-by-step instructions! Got the baby, where's the manual? Anyone? OR even better God to answer every FAQ parents have. He's the creator who's in better position to answer than HIM?
Anyway, from birth till NOW challenges come one after another...it just doesn't stop! Being parents really train one to be Christ dependent and also mold one's character!
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Our 3.2 megapixel camera just failed on us without warning during our last few days in Singapore, thus we haven't been taking any pictures of kai since...
We've ordered a new camera from Amazon
and....
It has ARRIVED today!!!! Woohoo.....
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i dun know if this happen to all new parents but i seem to be suffering from dementia; a condition more often than not suffered by the elderly. Perhaps parenthood bring us to a whole new level; the start of deterioration of one's sanity...
I can't even remember what happened couple of hours ago (i.e.what time did i last feed Kai? Left breast or right? Did he feed well? Have he pooped yet?). I tried very hard to recall...
i think i shall start updating my blog...
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I'll start SOON!
