Miracle of Life...

My belly is expanding day by day;
waistline is growing inch by inch...
though no one would guess by looking at me that I am pregnant (not yet);
the miracle of life has begun 13 weeks ago!

Every day the life inside me is growing...
I just hope he/she will grow in Christ-likeness -
hand that would reach out to the poor & needy;
feet that would lead people to Christ;
mouth that speak of Christ's love & grace;
heart that is filled with compassion.

I had my second Ob/Gyn visit just a week ago and did the second ultrasound...
we heard his/her heartbeat...strong & fluttering at 150-160 beats;
we saw images of him/her moving about...disliking the 'disturb';
his/her hand was above the head...as if he/she is waving to us;
we saw his/her tiny fingers & feet..at this I was welling up!

Thank God, I know the creator of this child and He calls me His beloved!

"You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in Your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed."
Psalm 139:16

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Cruising.

What are we doing when life is cruising along?

When we're go up the mountain...we pant for His [God] strength;
when we walk down the valley...we desperate for His grace & mercy.
when we reach a plateau...we get distracted with the many 'beautiful' things around us and our 'choice wine' [faith] get diluted!

God, forgive us...!

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As the deer panteth for the water,

So my soul longs after you.

You alone are my hearts desire,

And I long to worship You.

Chorus:

You alone are my strength, my shield;

To You alone may my spirit yield.

You alone are my hearts desire,

and I long to worship You.

I want you more than gold or silver,

Only You can satisfy.

You alone are the real joy giver

And the apple of my eye.

You're my friend and You're my brother,
Even though you are a King.
I love You more than any other
So much more than anything.

Guess What.

Well Done, Shona....you have accurately deciphered my *wink* from my previous post!

Is really hard to contain the good news - I'm Pregnant and car-ian is going to be Parents by mid February next year! For those who knew and kept my secret....thank you, for those i didn't shared with, I'm just waiting for the safe time to announce. God can give, He can take away...within His divine will!

I'm coming to the end of my first Trimester and no sigh of the bulge yet...Jess, i did heed your advice, i took a picture when i first realized my pregnancy and will continue to do so for the coming months...

(No,is not the pregnancy bulge...is just my chubby tummy!)

Ian & I are more than excited...we are rather overwhelmed (the good & bad ways) with the whole thing of parenting. It can be daunting but from all (maybe majority) parents, they will think the joy supersede the 'pain'...

For the past weeksssss...i haven't been able to eat well; i have been feeling nauseated at the sight, thought and even smell of food. Bread, cereal, McNugget ,cheddar cheese & protein choc shake have been my 'best friends' for the past weeks. Night time is the worst, i feeling so hungry yet unable to swallow down a bite of Ian's chicken wing...arghhhh!

Pray unceasingly. i think the nausea-ness is passing and I'm slowly introduce back to food. I'm thankful...

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Suc.cess

someone i know (an acquaintance) is doing very well in her home country; she appears in the newspaper & magazine, she's hosting a TV show, she's directing her own musical, she's successful in the eyes of many and Ian & I rejoice in her success!

Ian asked me "Did any of us pursue our dreams?" My first reply was "No talents...no dream to pursue!" Then as i pondered on it...it makes me think why do we (perhaps just me) only consider those who make it big in life successful?

True success in this life is doing God’s will to the best of our abilities. It’s important to understand that God sees success differently than the world does. He doesn’t look at how many magazine covers a person is on or how much money she brings home from commercial endorsements. God doesn’t care what kind of car a person drives, how big her house is or even if she owns a platinum credit card with no spending limit. All the power, money and fame in the world don’t impress God in the slightest.

Bottom line: If I want to become a success in God’s eyes, I should choose to surrender everything to Him and His will for my life! Joseph (in the bible) is the best example!

Perhaps....if God desire me to be a mum at this moment in my life, I'm successful in HIS eyes! *wink*

God does not lead me year by year, nor day by day but moment by moment...i just need to be sensitive to His leading! Listen & follow Him!

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