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Baby Kai-en is NOW 5 month old! 5 months ONLY? It actually felt i have him longer than that...it must be the sleepless nights and the round-the-clock feeding!

Despite all the struggles, stress & responsibilities, we couldn't help but to fall in love with kai; we couldn't imagine our lives without him.

There's indescribable joy watching him growing into an individual every day! Each day of his life he makes countless deposits in the memory banks of ours.

remembering...


@ Birth
The contractions HURTS and the pushing takes lots of EFFORT!

Thank God, it took baby Kai-en only approximately 5 hours (since the first contraction till i see him) to pop out! The labor was so quick that our enrollment into the hospital wasn't even completed when the baby is out! *Phew*

Kai was out early in the morning on Sunday (sabbath baby); just 4 hours before his birth we were still leisurely packing our labor bag thinking that i have plenty of time. We were even planning to take a walk in a park near to our place. What were we thinking? Thank God we didn't if not baby kai will be born @ Park! Until the contraction become more frequent & intense then we decided to go straight to the hospital...

when we reached the hospital around 2:45am, the nurse checked me and told me that i was already 5cm dilated!!! Not too long later....

Baby kai was born!!!!



All natural...NO epidural! i'm so proud of myself even though it was rather NO choice. *grin* The pain was so intense that i nearly strangled Ian; i grabbed him by his collar and keep telling him "i don't want this anymore...!"

Nothing touched the depths of my heart as the love i felt for Kai as soon as i held him in my arms.
The very moment he popped out, the delivery nurse brought him to me and i WEPT and the pain i went through just forgotten!

Anyway, we stayed in the hospital one night cos it was BORING!!! It was a BIG mistake...

@ first 3 months
It was TOUGH mentally, emotionally & physically! I thought I'm ready to be a mum after reading quite a few books on pregnancy & going for all the available pre-natal classes!

NO...!

Being a parent is harder than i imagine. Life would be easier if children came with a manual with step-by-step instructions! Got the baby, where's the manual? Anyone? OR even better God to answer every FAQ parents have. He's the creator who's in better position to answer than HIM?

Anyway, from birth till NOW challenges come one after another...it just doesn't stop! Being parents really train one to be Christ dependent and also mold one's character!


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